I found out there is a cyst on my right ovary that may need surgical removal. I'm trying not to freak out because it could just go away and not need any medical attention but if I fucking have to have surgery I'm going to flip my shit. I don't want to spend anymore time in the fucking hospital.
I am super lonely feeling right now.
I feel like I don't have a lot of friends (which is possibly the most ridiculous thing I could say, but I mean super close friends who I one hundred percent trust with my emotions) right now and it's really hard and it's really lonely.
Being grownup is one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn and it's weathering me so quickly and as cliched as this is life is short and I don't want to waste the increasingly shortening hours of my youth trying to learn how to be a grown up.
I'm tired of being tired all the time. My body is tired of hearing about what's wrong with it and why it can't do things.
I'm also tired of feeling like a failure. Comparing myself to everybody else who is smarter than me, and more talented than me, or more attractive than me, or better liked than me, or doing something way cooler with their life than me. But I'm too fucking lazy to fix any of it.
This is just me complaining. I'm actually doing rather well compared to the past lots of months.
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i know how you feel <3
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