i wanna dance with my babycakes, let my mouth go where it wants to

I heart Glee. I saw JD posting about that and just thought I would throw that one in there. For realz dudes, it's so awesome. Like straight up hilariosity. And I heart Finn too.


Anyhoo, things have been better but I'm super not down to talk about it.

Two weeks sans drugs and one month sans drunkeness. I'm weirdly proud of myself even though it's been a strange accident how it's happened. Just people losing their drugs, me not having enough money for drinking or drugs, not having anywhere that's decent to do drugs, other people flaking out. But I'm sill really proud, I don't care how accidental it's been.

The best part is I've noticed a small change is my lack of angst.

I really hate being a stupid person. I hate that my choices are do drugs and drink and smoke weed etc, and feel shitty all the time or I stay away from it all and am happier. It's such fucking bullshit. Being a depresso is so depressing. Because being drunk is fun and doing drugs recreationally is fun but I can't even do that. Especially not if I make the decision to use antidepressants again. I hate my body, I hate my brain, I hate the fact that I have to asses every single decision I make. Essentially, I hate that I can't be a weekend warrior.

Listening to Madonna right now. I also heart Madonna. Super stoked for the ENTIRELY MADONNA EPISODE OF GLEE!

ciao.