Thursday, November 20, 2008

Shoot to kill/Aim to please

I had a great day today. I got hella sleep last night even though the boys, my roommate Shawn and my boyfriend Caleb, had people over until about 5am, and I got some quality cuddling, which is one of my favorite things ever, my shift at work got cut from 6 hrs to 4 hrs (which is a good thing, I swear it), and I have the house to myself for the time being ( I used to hate it and now I love it).

My weekend is looking pretty great too. It goes like this:
Friday: Window shopping with two of my best pallys Sami and Hannah, work, then I'm heading to a party.
Saturday: Sleep in (no work, YAY!), hanging out with Lily (YAY! It's been FORVER!), hopefully (if it works out we can both do it) having another good pal Caeli over for dinner (YAY! someone else I haven't seen in a while), then perhaps (if there is something going on) going out or having a Buffy Fest with my amigos Isabel and Colleen.
Sunday: Maybe more Buffy with Isabel and Colleen, dinner with my parents (YAY! I love them they are too good to me), then meeting my long lost best friend Kathleen for some drunken Arrested Development.

I'm still missing people like crazy. Luckily my insane stalker tactics where I tried to get ahold of Lily every way possible worked and now I get to hang out with her, YAY!

Today I am missing two awesome people, INSANELY! They are both besties of mine, one of whom I see quite a bit and the other who moved far far far far far far away.

Hannah, my good pal who I have ever so much fun with, I am missing lots, cause I haven't seen her in, *gasp*, one whole week. I know it's silly some people go years without seeing each other and such, but she's soooooo cool and understands a lot of what I'm saying, even though I'm a little crazy and usually make very little sense. Especially when we're both drunk off coolers. She also happens to be the coolest person EVER (I think I might have mention that already), just generally awesome and badass and I aspire to be like her. Which shall never happen because she is also the most attractive person ever. She also cuts my hair very prettily. Basically, I just hella enjoy spending time avec Hannah and really want to see her, sooooo badly because there are very few people who understand my crazy speech and she is one of them. and now I'm rambling like a crazy person. So I'll stop.

The other person I'm missing like crazy-a-lazy is one of my best friends Brianne who moved across the country for schooling. She is someone, who no matter how crazy, upset, and unresonable I'm being, always makes me feel like I am a mature adult making a whole lotta sense. Which I rarely do. I ramble on crazily. We can talk for hours and hours and hours about anything and everything, although converstion usuallyends up about sex. She is te one person I used to be able to count on to be able to call at three in the morning. I mean that literally. Some people say that you can call and wake them, but when you do they get mad or unresponsive (or both), but Brianne would always make time for me. One time, I called her crying and anxious about maybe not being able to graduate and she talked to me (and calmed me down) for about three hours. She then made sure she was going to see me almost immediatley after (after we'd stayed up all night talking) and treated me to (McDonalds) breakfast. The day after, which I had expected to be so awful, was actually sooooo fun ( I was in three classes with Brianne and it was hilarious as we were both hella sleep deprived and had eaten McDOnalds for breakfast).This is her and me at prom being uber super cute and awesome.

She also has these super cool lip piercings, snakebites and another which I am not sure of the name, but they are my favorite lip piercings in the world. They suit her soooo well and I adore them. I also miss them.

My missing of Brianne has been going on for a long time, but deepened yesterday when I read this note of hers having to do with the use of the term "gay" and "lame". I use the term lame a lot in my everyday life, and she pointed out that it's hurtful and derogatory towards people who are "lame" in some way. So I'm making an effort to now use "poopy", something that I love saying and it is, in no way, at all, hurtful towards any particular group of people.

So imma go, still wathing Supernatural and the super cute boys are a-waiting...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Americans are forever searching for love in forms it never takes, in places it can never be. It must have something to do with the vanished frontier

I always try to keep a journal/diary of sorts but it never works out because I always get too busy and forget about writing.

Right now I'm watching Supernatural, a show I used to watch but stopped for some reason. It's just too awesome. The leads are super cool (as well as super attractive), the lines are super silly and make me giggle, and while the plot is lacking, it moves quickly enough to keep interest. Dean's my favorite. He's studly and witty and does stupid things. He's also hella charming, which is my favorite thing in a boy, and has pretty teeth.

I'm also reading Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut, and it's amazing. I'm a huge Vonnegut fan, I read my first book (Slaughterhouse-Five) of his when I was 16 for English class and loved it so much that I had to read others. The title of this post is line from Chp. 44.

Haruuum, the boys of Supernatural, Dean and Sam, are parusing around in some pipes being all sweaty, wet, and dirty, and it's just tooooooooooo attractive.

Life is being silly. Or I'm being silly, I suppose. I'm so fickle and up and down. My emotions are all over the place, one minute I'm happy, next I'm sad, or depressed, or gleeful, or terrified, or anxious, or any emotion, really. I miss people like crazy and then in a second I can completely hate them, sometimes all in the same moment. I blame it on the birth control pill. Extra estrogen is too much estrogen.

Anyways, I'm hella missing people, one person in particular is my friend Lily. We've been trying to hang out for weeks but something always comes up. We used to do all these awesome things together, like spooning outside the drama studio, and (me) cutting class (on Lily's spare) to go smoke behind the benches behind and talk about music or people or take/draw pictures or dance to Eagles of Death Metal (SOLID GOLD!!!). Now, I haven;t seen her in a couple of weeks and it's a little unsettling (Lily, if you read this, I'd really like to hang out pal).

SO blargh. I'm hoping things will get less silly but we'll see. In the meantime, I'll be "The Boys of Supernatural" kick some demonic ass.